This post is not going to be CAS related, at all. So if you're not interested, just skip this one.
So at church today, the sermon was about second chances and giving yourself second chances. I don't know, it just spoke to me in a deep level, especially when the priest mentioned students who take their own lives after failing an exam. Since final exams are coming, he told us that our exams do not define us. And we shouldn't let a failure get in the way of us living a good life. That broke me. I was almost going to cry. I've been struggling with myself for a while now. And I know how it feels to be cornered by yourself and feel worthless enough that you want to just... die. Kill yourself, get it over with. It's funny because when you get into a time or a situation like that, you feel like dying but at the same time, you don't want to die. You want someone to save you, but at the same time you don't want help from anyone, much less, let others see you in that state. There is one thing I hope to take away from today's sermon though. I hope I always get the courage to give myself a second chance. |
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